In the midst of my trial, there have been many a times – in moments of frustration and desperation – when I’ve raised clenched fists at God, demanding relief and freedom from the pain.

“DAMMIT TAKE THIS AWAY OR ELSE!!!”

I find that He usually is silent when I’m in these moods. And He allows me to experience the inner turmoil until I arrive at a place of exhaustion from anger and blame. When I meekly say “I’m sorry, Jesus. Who am I that you should be mindful of me.”

It is then that He reveals Himself by changing my heart, firming my faith and trust while shifting my perspective – nothing short of a miracle.

Since I believe that God is completely sovereign and in control of every single detail of my life, then I have to believe that He allows this trial for a divine purpose.

My responsibility is to be a good steward of this trial, and respond by seeking first His Kingdom, then everything else will fall in place, in His time.

Thus my prayer is this: help me, Lord; strengthen and enable me to respond in a way that glorifies you.